Category Archives: PTSD

Darkness is Beautiful

This week has been one of the hardest weeks in a long time. I didn’t realize until recently that I hadn’t dealt with some memories. I’d dealt with the memories leading up to the events, but not the events themselves. … Continue reading

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Shame and Empathy

I wrote recently how a lot has changed for me, for the better, and those changes mean that I have a clearer path to achieve my goals. Some of those goals are lengthy. Like career goals and being physically healthy. … Continue reading

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The Sweetest Space

This day has been all over the place. It hasn’t gone to plan, that’s for sure. A lot hasn’t gone to plan lately and mostly, that’s great. It’s because I’ve crossed this barrier I didn’t know existed. Not until I … Continue reading

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What Heartbreak Is and Isn’t (For Me)

Heartbreak isn’t something I’ve historically understood when it comes to romantic love. Though other types of heartache I understood, romantic love felt hollow, so any loss of a romantic situation left me simply shrugging my shoulders and saying, “Whatever…” My … Continue reading

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Be Humble, Be Vulnerable

Humans are strange. No doubt about it. Overall, we deny our own needs out of pride or fear or shame or guilt, and we fill our lives with useless clutter instead. When I look at my dogs, they don’t do that … Continue reading

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F@#k More

These past few weeks have been hell. The one time when I can be sure my depression will come back is when I’m sick. And it did, as I knew it would. But this last bit of ick has also … Continue reading

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Agency and Orgasms

Today, I asked D for something that even now, sounds a bit wonky even for me. And I was the one asking! But I’ve come to realize over these last fourish years that I know what I need to heal … Continue reading

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